stuck inside today. just writing…
i’m always talking to myself
and i’m always never getting anywhere with that
feeling sorry for all the wrong things
and i still do the wrong things
this comforting malaise
of the all the people i know
bullies, drunks, parents, siblings, lovers —
thoughtless, unforgiving, uncaring, and mean —
the most tiresome is me
in a selfish way
i treat myself poorly
and revel as the victim
and take glory in the pain
if god forgives sinners
if parents always love
if blood truly binds
if everyone around me
is the greatest that i could know
then it’s not their fault
then the world is good to me
then i need their forgiveness
i’ll treat myself well
i will be better
Creating set lists. Whew! what a load of work. In a few days I’ll bust out a set of live music, but I wondered (to myself, but still loud enough to confuse the people sitting beside me on the train) how do I decide on song order?
This can’t be simple. That just won’t do. So let’s overthink it.
At first, I simply ranked the songs’ “goodness” but it was not enough to create order among the 14 tracks. So I added a few more categories: tempo, mood, dynamics, melody, lyrics, and playability—from those I derived the average score and the median score for each song. My initial plan was to use the average and/or median scores to determine which order I should play the songs in. But those metrics weren’t as descriptive as I’d hoped. So I decided to create weighted averages for the dynamics, tempo, and playability scores; my logic being that these three metrics somehow represented the three most memorable characteristics of a song.
So I have all these numbers, but what was I going to actually do with them? How was I suppose to arrange a list of numbers to translate into a cohesive and enjoyable set of live music? I began by plotting the numbers with the songs in a pretty random order. The graph did not look like a road that I wanted to travel on. And that pretty much became my standard for a good set list: would I want to drive a car across the graph of its associated scores?
I finally decided to choose “tempo weighted” as the most crucial metric. I did this mainly because the variance in these scores was highest, i.e., there were higher peaks and lower valleys than in other categories.
Next, I needed to decide on how i wanted my “road” to actually look. I chose to start the set off mid-to-high tempo and sustain for a couple of songs. Then slow things down and then back up to mid-tempo, and then slow things down again. The set would end with a climb upward to the highest tempo song. Here is the result:
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All in all, I think it’s close to arbitrary but it always feels nice to have some reason behind “big” decisions like this — just come to my show already!. Thank you.
but here are the lyrics!
there’s even a track that isn’t on the album, “another world, another god” which was inspired by the three stigmata of palmer eldritch… it just wasn’t good enough for my exacting standards (also money-making re-issues need b-sides, so… there’s that)
and lo it was that soaring epic birds and fiery steel girders descended from the sky and there was a great tumult.
it is the end of all life on this back of this paper crane and we are sore.
i fell on.
and now on the grill: burgers and shouts.
it’s a time for drink and a time for us and there is a song and i don’t know who it is for, but i could guess, although it hurts my heart.
but i know that i am right.
and it was permitted, but there were also warning shots and nails to step on and torment to trip over and gerrymandering, whatever that means.
it all made sense.
we wandered delicately through leaves and bare earth whose tusks were tucked under canopies of fruit and fresh summer rain and coffee beans.
good news about the upcoming record.
the artwork and tracklist are below.
hey, i’m excited. my friend marc painted this portrait of me.
it’s an homage to this image but with my head on it.
1. the empire never ended
2. killing in the name of all that is good and holy
3. horselover (formerly “on writing”)
4. a life like god’s records
5. shortened life, part 1
6. abendsen’s dream (formerly
7. a precog never lies
8. twinless twin
9. shortened life, part 2
10. mercerism (fake world, revisited)
11. child of mars
12. i’m alive and you’re dead
13. the universe is cold
tentative release date: March 27, 2012
listen to demos on my soundcloud page
i took this photo and before you ask, no, those are not my fat pig hands 🙂
Richard Feynman’s personal calculus notebook… taken at the he Niels Bohr Library & Archives and the Center for History of Physics
- this new philip k. dick concept album is taking way longer than i expected
- i am publishing demos of songs that are halfway decent to my soundcloud page — there are only two up so far.
- the artwork for this album is going to be MONUMENTAL!!!
remember: i am doing it all for you, kiddo.
Tube socks are awesome… if you’re a robot with tubes for legs and no feet, that is!!
What were people thinking when they invented tube socks? Maybe something like:
“Eureka! I’ve done it! I’ve created the perfect sock for people with perfectly tubular legs!”
And that’s a quote!
from this cat:
whose picture i stole from the internet
don’t sue me
who’s a wittle puddy cat? you are! … yes you are!!
Tilva Ros is a Serbian film, directed by Nikola Lezaic. It is an understatement to say that I was pleased to see Tilva Ros in my hometown of Cleveland, Ohio. Having my friends there with me as a lovely piece of art flowed across a screen was not only kickass, but terrifying.
Among other pleasant surprises, the movie was remarkable for it’s quality and style and thoughtfulness and grace and blood and tears and funny costumes and beautiful landscapes.
Here are specific remarks that I wish to make:
- desolate and beautiful landscapes of a run down copper mine as well as the city of Bor, Serbia and surrounding area
- surprisingly competent, tortured, and emotional acting by relative amateurs
- awesome soundtrack of mostly english/american-sounding music. despite my obvious subjective view of the soundtrack (i have 2 songs in the film), it really struck me the independent vibe that radiates from each song selection. what does the previous sentence mean? is it useful? no.
anyway, congrats to everyone involved for their many awards on the film… including top prize at the Sarajevo Film Festival.
there are two ieatpants songs in this film and both can be downloaded for free. “unt” from the 2008 album stuck in long island city with the brooklyn blues again and “my energy, my direction” from 2010’s ieatpants.